Am i still happy!

It is so strange how emotions can affect human behaviour, i am still happy since yesterday(i recommend to read yesterday's blog to understand what i mean) i wonder how just 27 seconds can change the mood of a person over 24 hours, these 27 seconds are making me so happy, i walk in the street smiling(which is a habbit that i never had) i walk fast as if i am flying, i don't know for how long would this euphoric state of my fantastic 27 seconds last, i just wish they would last forever, would it last forever if i just isolated my self from all the poeple i know, i will travel away, go to the desert, live with a tribe in siwa or something, i just don't want to speak their language and neithter they do speak mine, i don't want to contact anyone with the language of this 27 seconds, i will live there for the rest of my life, i am not interested in anything anymore, i will work for my food and clothes, i just wish i could live forever with this happy memory without speckling it with flakes of ideas and memories, i wish i could attain the happiness that these 27 seconds gave me, i don't even want to have any seconds like these ones again, enough that i am happy, enough to live with those 27 seconds and no more, i am not sure if i would feel the same happiness if i had such seconds again.

Didn't i tell you that i must go anywhere far, what i was afraid of has just happened, i have read something that stole my happy feelings, it isn't sadness that i am complaining of, it is confusion, what has just happened, did i understand the thing before i respond, did i made anything wrong, was my sayings irrelevant to the subject, did i just poor some words that aren't related at all, did i even get the point of the reply i got, or i am just confused because i am stupid, may be stupidity is what i am having right now, or may be mania where i can't concentrate on one thing to talk about, or may be depression that i have nothing to say so just type, type and type without even knowing what i am typing.

i should take a rest for a while,

wait..................

i am having a sound in my head, yes i recognize it, it is the sound of the gift of Isis, her beautiful tone is filling the space in my empty heart, am i getting happy again, i wish so,

Have a happy day :)