What is it, that something that left you up the ground, sends you up in the sky, mask with its euphoria the greatest joys you ever have in life, what is it that when you are feeling so down it comes up unannounced probably too not welcomed, but it releases whatever energy was kept in you, it steals away any urge to seek happiness, happiness then is no longer desirable, I guess it is called: Addiction. But it's a pity when you are addicted to a cheap stuff and are decieved thinking of it the utmost goodness, how hard would it be to stir up a need to reach higher for a better stuff knowing that there is no going back but you accept that. It is just a note for history.