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Last week I had my Ophthalmology Oral exam together with slide identification and case spot diagnosis exams. I started studying for this exam four days before it. I don't know why but I started with Glaucoma then Cataract then The Cornea and the retina. Believe it or not it took me three days studying those somehow well understood subjects. I had only one day left for the rest of the subjects. When it came to my oral exam i sat to Dr. Mohamed Fakhry, a very gentle and kind professor, he started asking questions about the subjects I studied well and I was answering very well, then he and his colleague asked me about the eye lid, I couldn't even classify the inflammations of the eye lid, they said it was important subject and faced very frequently in clinical life and I knew that. Then they asked me in the optic disk; the difference between papilitis and papilleodema as in the eye lid, I couldn't answer them. Dr. Mohamed's colleague said it was very important and wondered why won't I know them, My answer was: really I couldn't find enough time. It might sound like stupid execuse and actually it is as it was my fault not being able to organize my time before the exam properly and prioritize the subjects that needed most attention. Another thing that didn't help me in that exam was the lectures. Both subjects; the eye lid and the optic disk were given in only one lecture each. The professors just ran over the two subjects without through explanation and discussion, they might be execused as they aren't the ones who put the course time table. But some professors like Dr. Mohamed Abd El Mabood could use very little time to explain large topics in an understandable comprensive way that lodge into our brains. I don't think I will ever forget the retinal diseases he explained in his one lecture. In those four days I really tired myself out studying the subjects that I studied, I used to use Kanski's illustrated tutorials to get more scientific studying, I used to wake up at about 5:00 am and by the time of 6 or 7 I can't even move a limb. I am sure that my effort won't go to waste and whatever marks I lost in this exam I am sure I will make up for them in the coming exams isA. It just makes me feel sad when I listen to my colleagues doing so well in their exams, I am not envying them, God forbid, I just know that I could have done better. I am somehow glad that I wasn't examined by Doctor Mohamed El Basty and Dr. Mohamed Abd El Mabood who both were sitting to one table, cuz they are my ideals and I hated to disappoint them. I am also sorry Dr. Mohamed Abd El Mabood, I attended your How to elicit signs tutorials and although I thought I was paying maximum attention and I wrote down everything you said, yet, I didn't do so well eliciting signs in the exam, namely in muscle balance and swinging motion!


I closed my facebook last saturday morning, I was really fed up with this website, I tried to find out any useful usage of it to stay on it and I couldn't. It is and no doubt does waste my time horrible, think that the first thing to do in the morning after waking up is to check my facebook, it becomes an obsession and I become severely dependent on it. I got the courage to close it for good or at least till I graduate is when I closed it the four days before my exam, I really concentrated very much in studying and was more emotionally stable. Another down side of facebook is my friend list. I am the one who would know where he is bad at and try to fix it. Many times I share this ideas then find my friends saying no you aren't bad you are good don't say so, I needed no one to cuddle me, I needed someone to be honest with me and help me get over my problems and accept my feelings, that's a major reason why I closed it.


My situation right now isn't much clear. I am now on the right path, doing the right thing and taking care of the important things and ignoring the unimportant stuff and erase those distractions from my life. All I need right now is that Allah would help me stay on the right path and fix my heart on it. I need to be more perservant on this life style and I have to stick more to my principles and concepts. Shall Allah help me.


I have also decided to stop watching TV. What good can that do to me and my coming life. It is just a way of distraction and attraction to an unreal rosey life that prevent me from concentrating on my real life. I have also found out that whether on TV or not I should boycott the simpsons, in many occasions they impersonated the Almighty Allah in their humerous damned Cartoons, I don't know why it took me so long to make that decissions, shall Allah forgive me for watching it all that time after I knew what they do.


So far so good? as we say in Egypt no one learns for free محدش بيتعلم ببلاش. It may be true but before that it was too late, it too late or...... .

قال علي ابن ابي طالب رضي الله عنه: لا خير في عمل لا علم فيه