Last sunday I got my Ophthalmology exam grades. Al7amdolellah I got 47 out of 50. I don't know how it happened. But seems that Allah didn't let my efforts go to waste. Al7amdolellah.

The same sunday I had my first CSPM visit of the community medicine and public health. I was very scared at the beginning. Then it turns out that people welcome you to examine their blood pressure and sugar levels, wearing the white coat double the welcome you get lol. My subteam was the last to finish because we used to talk a lot with patients and we examined others who wanted to be examined and yet refused to be enlisted in our full examination research even when they were informed of the confidentiality of our research.

Today we had our Rural visit to Om Khnan village in Giza. Again I felt very shy to enter houses and ask medical questions, but it turned out more than fine, doors are already open, when you greet people and introduce yourself you are totally welcome. The first house I entered happened to have been visited before, their little girl had a neurological problem in her leg, they reported it to the students who told the woman that doctors would come and check their daughter when they knew no one would. Our mission is only statistical as well as health educative, this is a major set back that should be avoided, don't give false hope to a patient, in this case they gave the family of the girl the hope of being examined by the top professors of our college, a worse case is to give the false hope of recovery or long life when actually there isn't. My heart is still aching till now when I was standing there infront of that girl, her mother and grandmother not knowing what to tell them, I might pass by them next visit isA to tell them when they can come and and get the little girl checked in our Kasr. They told me that she was examined in the kwaity millitary hospital! and they were told that it was a congenital anomaly yet they still live on the hope that may be one day someone could fix her.

People there are so simple and, comparing to our CSPM visit cases, very healthy. It made me think that one day I may work in a PHC center in a village like that, where I can really help people and listen to them, to be "el 7akeem" not the doctor unlike working in Kasr Al Ainy where it is another round of collecting marks and striving to be the best to get to teach there and have the underlying benefits, Kasr doctors usually residents rarely spend more than one minute with their patients to listen to their complaint and their management isn't that quite fascinating regarding the reputation it has.

I guess I had more ideas to type in this blog but I can't think of any right now!