الظرف لا يجعل العالم مكاناً أفضل, الظرف يجعل العالم مكاناً أظرف.
People make mistakes; that's why they put an eraser on the top of every pencil.(Liny from The simpsons)
If you don't do it don't demand others to do it.
Humour improve capability of retaining data in memory 14 times.
Wednesday, 29 April 2009
Monday, 27 April 2009
Where do I want to work?
I once watched a Simpson's episode, Mr. Burns lost his fortune for some reason and Lisa was helping him rebuilding it but in a human way as recycling, well, the people he got to employ in his new recycling plant was the grandpas of springfield most probably due to the limited resources, naturally their productivity is low, so he was shouting at them and insulting them so they would work harder, so Lisa told him that if he wanted them to be more productive he should show more appreciation and the joke was the reward he was going to give them had they become more productive, but it is the same in our situation, All we get from our Dean, Heads of Departments, Most of professors, All they do and say is reminding us how inefficient "we" are, how "we" would embaress them internationally, how "we" are the reason our medical school is no more accredited, how "we" only care about memorizing without working our brains and understanding, well, we respect our appointments and you don't, we do our best and obviously you don't, we believe in ourselves and you not just don't but also frustrate us, we read from text books and you make more than 50% of the exam essay questions, way to go for those who want us to "understand", you say we study the wrong way and that we should be smart while studying yet you don't tell us how, you are supposed to be teaching us but yet you are just frustrating us, you say that we should be ready to make a change yet you didn't make any change except for being a Uni staff. For all of that I don't care because we are monsters dears and we can do what you can't even imagine.
Back to the title, when I graduate isA I want to work in one of the following positions:
1-Forensic assistant Lecturer.
2-Surgeon in the Hospitals of the Egyptian armed forces.
3-A PHC physician followed by specializing in pediatrics.
4-Further learning abroad is still not in my schedule right now, but I might do it.
We usually pray shall Allah presents what is best for us and I hope Allah make me the best to deserve these jobs.
Back to the title, when I graduate isA I want to work in one of the following positions:
1-Forensic assistant Lecturer.
2-Surgeon in the Hospitals of the Egyptian armed forces.
3-A PHC physician followed by specializing in pediatrics.
4-Further learning abroad is still not in my schedule right now, but I might do it.
We usually pray shall Allah presents what is best for us and I hope Allah make me the best to deserve these jobs.
Wednesday, 22 April 2009
Today's shock exam
Yesterday we were told by the leader of the leaders that we have a shock exam today, yes we know when our shock exams are.
The attendance was doubled and of course those who were coming for the shock exams kept talking and disturbing us who came for science and learning, our professor is unfortunately of the kind type who just warn about and about and never punish so students kept talking, I was having a headache imagine about 250 students having side talks in a supposedly lecture when you should have total concentration to understand your professor. Many times I just put my head on the bench to relieve the stress, I and many others attend those lectures just for science, I myself don't care about if it is useful for my final exams or about the grades of shock exam or about the attendance, all I care about is learning.
So Dr. Nargis come in the middle of the lecture, finds students having their side talks, she gets angry and cancel the shock exam as well as talking away the two marks of those exam from ALL students, including us who come all the time and participate all the time in our lectures, ok, no problem as she wishes!
Then she asks us to put our numbers and names in papers to assess attendance and any name that won't be present in the hall would costs us all our attendance and that's exactly what happened, the first name she called for wasn't there, so she considered us all not attending, again, no problem, neither the grades of the shock exam nor the attendance is the reason I am coming for to those lectures.
I want to ask her some questions, is she being fair by doing this, she is totally unjust to us, what is the mistake we did, nothing except for being in the same group!
What is the reason for this shock exams, is it to assess attendance; you could have done it in the first place, is it to evaluate our level; you could have done it in the minilectures where numbers are way less, concentration is better and you have better control, but of course it has nothing to do with evaluating us, because evaluating us means that the grades must show up after the exam to know our status which never happens, all what she want to do is to brag that she has maximum attendance number so that the committee who would assess our college think that we come because we all love to learn from college, which is far from true.
I hate when heads of departments treat us like comepetitors, we are your students for God's sake, you are supposed to teach us and help us be a good seed for future doctors, not to keep punishing us for reason or no reason and when it comes to doing the right thing no rewarding at all, this is frustrating.
The attendance was doubled and of course those who were coming for the shock exams kept talking and disturbing us who came for science and learning, our professor is unfortunately of the kind type who just warn about and about and never punish so students kept talking, I was having a headache imagine about 250 students having side talks in a supposedly lecture when you should have total concentration to understand your professor. Many times I just put my head on the bench to relieve the stress, I and many others attend those lectures just for science, I myself don't care about if it is useful for my final exams or about the grades of shock exam or about the attendance, all I care about is learning.
So Dr. Nargis come in the middle of the lecture, finds students having their side talks, she gets angry and cancel the shock exam as well as talking away the two marks of those exam from ALL students, including us who come all the time and participate all the time in our lectures, ok, no problem as she wishes!
Then she asks us to put our numbers and names in papers to assess attendance and any name that won't be present in the hall would costs us all our attendance and that's exactly what happened, the first name she called for wasn't there, so she considered us all not attending, again, no problem, neither the grades of the shock exam nor the attendance is the reason I am coming for to those lectures.
I want to ask her some questions, is she being fair by doing this, she is totally unjust to us, what is the mistake we did, nothing except for being in the same group!
What is the reason for this shock exams, is it to assess attendance; you could have done it in the first place, is it to evaluate our level; you could have done it in the minilectures where numbers are way less, concentration is better and you have better control, but of course it has nothing to do with evaluating us, because evaluating us means that the grades must show up after the exam to know our status which never happens, all what she want to do is to brag that she has maximum attendance number so that the committee who would assess our college think that we come because we all love to learn from college, which is far from true.
I hate when heads of departments treat us like comepetitors, we are your students for God's sake, you are supposed to teach us and help us be a good seed for future doctors, not to keep punishing us for reason or no reason and when it comes to doing the right thing no rewarding at all, this is frustrating.
Monday, 20 April 2009
A message to Dr. Nargis Albert; the head of the community medicine and public health department
Dear Dr. Nargis,
After spending two weeks in the community medicine and public health round, I have to admit, I am impressed. Many of the opinions I got about that round were so frustrating. No one can doubt that it is a very hard round and need maximum effort in all levels but it is a hard route that I would like to take in my journey of becoming a good doctor.
This round and those visits gave me the chance to meet new people, simple people, it made me realize two things, first of all, it is almost always that people carry great respect for Doctors unlike what I expected due to the media butchering campaigns that is out for doctors, secondly, I was given the chance to meet two kinds of Egyptian people, both simple and both have different health needs and face different health problems; CSPM and rural.
I found that people trust us, as doctors, very much. They want to talk to us and they need us to listen to them, it was a very close simulation to a real life doctor.
Another thing is that it added working as a PHC physician as a solid option in my post graduate work options. Before that I saw it as a punishment for those who didn't study enough to get brilliant grades. Now after I have understood the system of health care in Egypt I can say that I am willing to work as a PHC center and that won't be because I am a bad student but it would be because I am good enough to help those people and I want to do that, isn't helping people what mainly attracted me to medicine.
So far so good, but I want to give you my feed back regarding some points that I found not meeting the standards of the rights of students! The only reason I am giving me feedback is to enhance the effect on the students of the next years and the more years to come.
Time management seems to be a huge problem in CM&PH department. Professors many times come late to their lectures and accordingly don't use the full time benefit of the lecture. They can't fairly distribute lecture hours on the over all content of the chapters; the last lecture is the one that will be so heavy so long and very hard to be studied, this problem can be easily solved if professors come in time and give each part of the subject they will lecture its fair portion of time. Also about the rural visit, you kept saying be on time ten to ten sharp and the bus will leave you if you came late, Dr. Nargis, our bus took off at half past ten, we came on time, you are the one who delayed our trip, so just for your information; omission is a reaction and not an action, when later on you find students coming late, know that it was you who started it and it may appear as a reaction on our behalf yet it is so shameful to be on yours; don't say that you "wait" and "come late" because we are the one who are always late, if you come on time all the time and respect our appointments, you will find us there before you (this apply to the professors of the ophthalmology department as well of course except for Dr. Mohamed El Basty and Dr. Mohamed Abd El Mabood who were always on time) p.s: Your time table is a jewel, I don't know how you did it actually, it shows excellent allocating of limited resources, great job really!
Please Dr. Nargis, can't you count your students, have you seen the buses we take to the rural and fever H visits, did you count the number of seats on both buses, don't answer cuz I know it already; NO, YOU DIDN'T, because even when about 8 of us took their own cars to the rural visit we were standing in the bus occupying every inch on its floor the whole way going and coming, I know we are men and it is our duty to stand such an easy setback, yet please, respect our right to have a safe ride from and to the rural visit, the college has many other buses you can use, try a third one, عشان ندعيلك.
I know that saying that would make many of my colleagues kill me but we need more training for the visits, in my experience it wasn't enough what was given in the communication skills, or I guess I should have worked harder by myself!
To be edited....
After spending two weeks in the community medicine and public health round, I have to admit, I am impressed. Many of the opinions I got about that round were so frustrating. No one can doubt that it is a very hard round and need maximum effort in all levels but it is a hard route that I would like to take in my journey of becoming a good doctor.
This round and those visits gave me the chance to meet new people, simple people, it made me realize two things, first of all, it is almost always that people carry great respect for Doctors unlike what I expected due to the media butchering campaigns that is out for doctors, secondly, I was given the chance to meet two kinds of Egyptian people, both simple and both have different health needs and face different health problems; CSPM and rural.
I found that people trust us, as doctors, very much. They want to talk to us and they need us to listen to them, it was a very close simulation to a real life doctor.
Another thing is that it added working as a PHC physician as a solid option in my post graduate work options. Before that I saw it as a punishment for those who didn't study enough to get brilliant grades. Now after I have understood the system of health care in Egypt I can say that I am willing to work as a PHC center and that won't be because I am a bad student but it would be because I am good enough to help those people and I want to do that, isn't helping people what mainly attracted me to medicine.
So far so good, but I want to give you my feed back regarding some points that I found not meeting the standards of the rights of students! The only reason I am giving me feedback is to enhance the effect on the students of the next years and the more years to come.
Time management seems to be a huge problem in CM&PH department. Professors many times come late to their lectures and accordingly don't use the full time benefit of the lecture. They can't fairly distribute lecture hours on the over all content of the chapters; the last lecture is the one that will be so heavy so long and very hard to be studied, this problem can be easily solved if professors come in time and give each part of the subject they will lecture its fair portion of time. Also about the rural visit, you kept saying be on time ten to ten sharp and the bus will leave you if you came late, Dr. Nargis, our bus took off at half past ten, we came on time, you are the one who delayed our trip, so just for your information; omission is a reaction and not an action, when later on you find students coming late, know that it was you who started it and it may appear as a reaction on our behalf yet it is so shameful to be on yours; don't say that you "wait" and "come late" because we are the one who are always late, if you come on time all the time and respect our appointments, you will find us there before you (this apply to the professors of the ophthalmology department as well of course except for Dr. Mohamed El Basty and Dr. Mohamed Abd El Mabood who were always on time) p.s: Your time table is a jewel, I don't know how you did it actually, it shows excellent allocating of limited resources, great job really!
Please Dr. Nargis, can't you count your students, have you seen the buses we take to the rural and fever H visits, did you count the number of seats on both buses, don't answer cuz I know it already; NO, YOU DIDN'T, because even when about 8 of us took their own cars to the rural visit we were standing in the bus occupying every inch on its floor the whole way going and coming, I know we are men and it is our duty to stand such an easy setback, yet please, respect our right to have a safe ride from and to the rural visit, the college has many other buses you can use, try a third one, عشان ندعيلك.
I know that saying that would make many of my colleagues kill me but we need more training for the visits, in my experience it wasn't enough what was given in the communication skills, or I guess I should have worked harder by myself!
To be edited....
Thursday, 16 April 2009
Last sunday I got my Ophthalmology exam grades. Al7amdolellah I got 47 out of 50. I don't know how it happened. But seems that Allah didn't let my efforts go to waste. Al7amdolellah.
The same sunday I had my first CSPM visit of the community medicine and public health. I was very scared at the beginning. Then it turns out that people welcome you to examine their blood pressure and sugar levels, wearing the white coat double the welcome you get lol. My subteam was the last to finish because we used to talk a lot with patients and we examined others who wanted to be examined and yet refused to be enlisted in our full examination research even when they were informed of the confidentiality of our research.
Today we had our Rural visit to Om Khnan village in Giza. Again I felt very shy to enter houses and ask medical questions, but it turned out more than fine, doors are already open, when you greet people and introduce yourself you are totally welcome. The first house I entered happened to have been visited before, their little girl had a neurological problem in her leg, they reported it to the students who told the woman that doctors would come and check their daughter when they knew no one would. Our mission is only statistical as well as health educative, this is a major set back that should be avoided, don't give false hope to a patient, in this case they gave the family of the girl the hope of being examined by the top professors of our college, a worse case is to give the false hope of recovery or long life when actually there isn't. My heart is still aching till now when I was standing there infront of that girl, her mother and grandmother not knowing what to tell them, I might pass by them next visit isA to tell them when they can come and and get the little girl checked in our Kasr. They told me that she was examined in the kwaity millitary hospital! and they were told that it was a congenital anomaly yet they still live on the hope that may be one day someone could fix her.
People there are so simple and, comparing to our CSPM visit cases, very healthy. It made me think that one day I may work in a PHC center in a village like that, where I can really help people and listen to them, to be "el 7akeem" not the doctor unlike working in Kasr Al Ainy where it is another round of collecting marks and striving to be the best to get to teach there and have the underlying benefits, Kasr doctors usually residents rarely spend more than one minute with their patients to listen to their complaint and their management isn't that quite fascinating regarding the reputation it has.
I guess I had more ideas to type in this blog but I can't think of any right now!
The same sunday I had my first CSPM visit of the community medicine and public health. I was very scared at the beginning. Then it turns out that people welcome you to examine their blood pressure and sugar levels, wearing the white coat double the welcome you get lol. My subteam was the last to finish because we used to talk a lot with patients and we examined others who wanted to be examined and yet refused to be enlisted in our full examination research even when they were informed of the confidentiality of our research.
Today we had our Rural visit to Om Khnan village in Giza. Again I felt very shy to enter houses and ask medical questions, but it turned out more than fine, doors are already open, when you greet people and introduce yourself you are totally welcome. The first house I entered happened to have been visited before, their little girl had a neurological problem in her leg, they reported it to the students who told the woman that doctors would come and check their daughter when they knew no one would. Our mission is only statistical as well as health educative, this is a major set back that should be avoided, don't give false hope to a patient, in this case they gave the family of the girl the hope of being examined by the top professors of our college, a worse case is to give the false hope of recovery or long life when actually there isn't. My heart is still aching till now when I was standing there infront of that girl, her mother and grandmother not knowing what to tell them, I might pass by them next visit isA to tell them when they can come and and get the little girl checked in our Kasr. They told me that she was examined in the kwaity millitary hospital! and they were told that it was a congenital anomaly yet they still live on the hope that may be one day someone could fix her.
People there are so simple and, comparing to our CSPM visit cases, very healthy. It made me think that one day I may work in a PHC center in a village like that, where I can really help people and listen to them, to be "el 7akeem" not the doctor unlike working in Kasr Al Ainy where it is another round of collecting marks and striving to be the best to get to teach there and have the underlying benefits, Kasr doctors usually residents rarely spend more than one minute with their patients to listen to their complaint and their management isn't that quite fascinating regarding the reputation it has.
I guess I had more ideas to type in this blog but I can't think of any right now!
Sunday, 5 April 2009
A new white "late" page
Last week I had my Ophthalmology Oral exam together with slide identification and case spot diagnosis exams. I started studying for this exam four days before it. I don't know why but I started with Glaucoma then Cataract then The Cornea and the retina. Believe it or not it took me three days studying those somehow well understood subjects. I had only one day left for the rest of the subjects. When it came to my oral exam i sat to Dr. Mohamed Fakhry, a very gentle and kind professor, he started asking questions about the subjects I studied well and I was answering very well, then he and his colleague asked me about the eye lid, I couldn't even classify the inflammations of the eye lid, they said it was important subject and faced very frequently in clinical life and I knew that. Then they asked me in the optic disk; the difference between papilitis and papilleodema as in the eye lid, I couldn't answer them. Dr. Mohamed's colleague said it was very important and wondered why won't I know them, My answer was: really I couldn't find enough time. It might sound like stupid execuse and actually it is as it was my fault not being able to organize my time before the exam properly and prioritize the subjects that needed most attention. Another thing that didn't help me in that exam was the lectures. Both subjects; the eye lid and the optic disk were given in only one lecture each. The professors just ran over the two subjects without through explanation and discussion, they might be execused as they aren't the ones who put the course time table. But some professors like Dr. Mohamed Abd El Mabood could use very little time to explain large topics in an understandable comprensive way that lodge into our brains. I don't think I will ever forget the retinal diseases he explained in his one lecture. In those four days I really tired myself out studying the subjects that I studied, I used to use Kanski's illustrated tutorials to get more scientific studying, I used to wake up at about 5:00 am and by the time of 6 or 7 I can't even move a limb. I am sure that my effort won't go to waste and whatever marks I lost in this exam I am sure I will make up for them in the coming exams isA. It just makes me feel sad when I listen to my colleagues doing so well in their exams, I am not envying them, God forbid, I just know that I could have done better. I am somehow glad that I wasn't examined by Doctor Mohamed El Basty and Dr. Mohamed Abd El Mabood who both were sitting to one table, cuz they are my ideals and I hated to disappoint them. I am also sorry Dr. Mohamed Abd El Mabood, I attended your How to elicit signs tutorials and although I thought I was paying maximum attention and I wrote down everything you said, yet, I didn't do so well eliciting signs in the exam, namely in muscle balance and swinging motion!
I closed my facebook last saturday morning, I was really fed up with this website, I tried to find out any useful usage of it to stay on it and I couldn't. It is and no doubt does waste my time horrible, think that the first thing to do in the morning after waking up is to check my facebook, it becomes an obsession and I become severely dependent on it. I got the courage to close it for good or at least till I graduate is when I closed it the four days before my exam, I really concentrated very much in studying and was more emotionally stable. Another down side of facebook is my friend list. I am the one who would know where he is bad at and try to fix it. Many times I share this ideas then find my friends saying no you aren't bad you are good don't say so, I needed no one to cuddle me, I needed someone to be honest with me and help me get over my problems and accept my feelings, that's a major reason why I closed it.
My situation right now isn't much clear. I am now on the right path, doing the right thing and taking care of the important things and ignoring the unimportant stuff and erase those distractions from my life. All I need right now is that Allah would help me stay on the right path and fix my heart on it. I need to be more perservant on this life style and I have to stick more to my principles and concepts. Shall Allah help me.
I have also decided to stop watching TV. What good can that do to me and my coming life. It is just a way of distraction and attraction to an unreal rosey life that prevent me from concentrating on my real life. I have also found out that whether on TV or not I should boycott the simpsons, in many occasions they impersonated the Almighty Allah in their humerous damned Cartoons, I don't know why it took me so long to make that decissions, shall Allah forgive me for watching it all that time after I knew what they do.
So far so good? as we say in Egypt no one learns for free محدش بيتعلم ببلاش. It may be true but before that it was too late, it too late or...... .
I closed my facebook last saturday morning, I was really fed up with this website, I tried to find out any useful usage of it to stay on it and I couldn't. It is and no doubt does waste my time horrible, think that the first thing to do in the morning after waking up is to check my facebook, it becomes an obsession and I become severely dependent on it. I got the courage to close it for good or at least till I graduate is when I closed it the four days before my exam, I really concentrated very much in studying and was more emotionally stable. Another down side of facebook is my friend list. I am the one who would know where he is bad at and try to fix it. Many times I share this ideas then find my friends saying no you aren't bad you are good don't say so, I needed no one to cuddle me, I needed someone to be honest with me and help me get over my problems and accept my feelings, that's a major reason why I closed it.
My situation right now isn't much clear. I am now on the right path, doing the right thing and taking care of the important things and ignoring the unimportant stuff and erase those distractions from my life. All I need right now is that Allah would help me stay on the right path and fix my heart on it. I need to be more perservant on this life style and I have to stick more to my principles and concepts. Shall Allah help me.
I have also decided to stop watching TV. What good can that do to me and my coming life. It is just a way of distraction and attraction to an unreal rosey life that prevent me from concentrating on my real life. I have also found out that whether on TV or not I should boycott the simpsons, in many occasions they impersonated the Almighty Allah in their humerous damned Cartoons, I don't know why it took me so long to make that decissions, shall Allah forgive me for watching it all that time after I knew what they do.
So far so good? as we say in Egypt no one learns for free محدش بيتعلم ببلاش. It may be true but before that it was too late, it too late or...... .
قال علي ابن ابي طالب رضي الله عنه: لا خير في عمل لا علم فيه
Wednesday, 1 April 2009
My last oral exam
It may be a little weird why I keep writing in this blog about daily events that occur in my life. But I have a problem in expressing my feeling and writing is a good way to express them. A good example is when my cat died, I loved that cat a lot, but it seemed that I never been even a little upset, till I decided to write my blog " A tale of a pasha ". I actually was crying when I was writing the draft of that blog. Also it seems that I can't talk to anyone honestly without being criticized specially my father so I find that it is a good way to talk honestly and freely in here.
Anyway, about my last Oral exam, it was yesterday, Tuesday the 31 st of March. The exam had three parts, first was the slide show identification, then spot diagnosis of clinical cases and eliciting signs, then oral exam.
I did very well in the first part as I have a photogenic memory, I don't need anytime to figure out what the slide was about.
I did well too in the spot diagnosis exam and answered the questions too.
Then it came to the eliciting signs stations, the first one I didn't know how to assess muscle balance, which happened to be the corneal light reflex which I knew very well. The second one was the pupillary light reflex which I knew very well and did it very well too, BUT, seems that I didn't understand the swinging procedure, I thought that i notice the consensual light reflex in the opposite eye when the light in one eye, but it appeared that I had to look in the same eye again after the swinging motion to notice if there is a mydriatic reaction as a sign of relative afferent pupillary defect, anyway, it is relatively good till here.
Then comes the Oral exam, I am sitting to two professors, one is Dr. Mohamed Fakhry, he lectured us once before and I couldn't recognize the other one. Honestly Dr. Mohamed was very nice and cool with me. I answered at first very well to his questions, then it came to the eye lid and the optic disk questions, when I started to be quiet. The other Dr. said that it was important things. My reply was "honestly I didn't find time to revise them". Actually it wasn't the problem of revision, most of my answers I remembered them from the lecturs, we had the whole eye lid disease and anatomy lectured in only one session by Dr. Rania, very inefficient and a waste of time type lecture, we got out without any basis about the eye lid. Also the optic disc was supposed to be lectured in two lectures but it was lectured in only one as a sudden holiday appeared on occasion of freeing Taba. Both subjects were totally left over. Anyway I am going to study them right after I finish this blog isA.
What was striking is how much tired I was studying the last four days, I used to wake up early and have a nap at noon, other than that all my time was studying when 6 o'clock came I hardly can move a limb, so tired physically from studying, not to mention mentally too. I studied too much and I started with Glaucoma, then the lens then the cornea etc etc till I ran out of time and didnt' revise the things that weren't lectured properly.
Here I learn a good listen, right at that time I have already studied glaucoma and the lens very well, I could have left them for the end to check quickly and save their time to study the lid and the optic disk. Next time isA I will start with the subjects I am weakest at and finish with the subjects I am good at.
Although I know that I probably won't get more than 30 out of the 50 marks of that end round exam, but I know that me getting all that tired and have all those mistakes won't be gone to waste, It sure would be of a benefit to me later isA and may be in the final exam I will answer better and not sit quiet.
At last I am thankful I wasn't examed by either Dr. Mohamed El Basty or Dr. Mohamed Abd EL Mabood, not because of the grades they would give me, but because It was going to be so shameful sitting infront of them not knowing to answer their questions, they are my role models anyway, hope I can do better in the coming one isA.
Anyway, about my last Oral exam, it was yesterday, Tuesday the 31 st of March. The exam had three parts, first was the slide show identification, then spot diagnosis of clinical cases and eliciting signs, then oral exam.
I did very well in the first part as I have a photogenic memory, I don't need anytime to figure out what the slide was about.
I did well too in the spot diagnosis exam and answered the questions too.
Then it came to the eliciting signs stations, the first one I didn't know how to assess muscle balance, which happened to be the corneal light reflex which I knew very well. The second one was the pupillary light reflex which I knew very well and did it very well too, BUT, seems that I didn't understand the swinging procedure, I thought that i notice the consensual light reflex in the opposite eye when the light in one eye, but it appeared that I had to look in the same eye again after the swinging motion to notice if there is a mydriatic reaction as a sign of relative afferent pupillary defect, anyway, it is relatively good till here.
Then comes the Oral exam, I am sitting to two professors, one is Dr. Mohamed Fakhry, he lectured us once before and I couldn't recognize the other one. Honestly Dr. Mohamed was very nice and cool with me. I answered at first very well to his questions, then it came to the eye lid and the optic disk questions, when I started to be quiet. The other Dr. said that it was important things. My reply was "honestly I didn't find time to revise them". Actually it wasn't the problem of revision, most of my answers I remembered them from the lecturs, we had the whole eye lid disease and anatomy lectured in only one session by Dr. Rania, very inefficient and a waste of time type lecture, we got out without any basis about the eye lid. Also the optic disc was supposed to be lectured in two lectures but it was lectured in only one as a sudden holiday appeared on occasion of freeing Taba. Both subjects were totally left over. Anyway I am going to study them right after I finish this blog isA.
What was striking is how much tired I was studying the last four days, I used to wake up early and have a nap at noon, other than that all my time was studying when 6 o'clock came I hardly can move a limb, so tired physically from studying, not to mention mentally too. I studied too much and I started with Glaucoma, then the lens then the cornea etc etc till I ran out of time and didnt' revise the things that weren't lectured properly.
Here I learn a good listen, right at that time I have already studied glaucoma and the lens very well, I could have left them for the end to check quickly and save their time to study the lid and the optic disk. Next time isA I will start with the subjects I am weakest at and finish with the subjects I am good at.
Although I know that I probably won't get more than 30 out of the 50 marks of that end round exam, but I know that me getting all that tired and have all those mistakes won't be gone to waste, It sure would be of a benefit to me later isA and may be in the final exam I will answer better and not sit quiet.
At last I am thankful I wasn't examed by either Dr. Mohamed El Basty or Dr. Mohamed Abd EL Mabood, not because of the grades they would give me, but because It was going to be so shameful sitting infront of them not knowing to answer their questions, they are my role models anyway, hope I can do better in the coming one isA.
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